I knew I would miss him

It's the little things that make me miss him most. Loading the dishwasher & remembering that I can put the silverware in all the slots. I no longer am losing bottle parts where I need to close the basket on the silverware. Finding a stray bib in the van. Walking thru the bedroom and not stepping by his bed. I must say that his tiny little self has tugged at me more than any other. Perhaps it's his size, and him being even more vulnerable. Most likely it's how dependent he was on me and how I loved being with him. It's also highly likely he reminded me so much of Lucas as a baby.

Now that baby is gone I have focused on helping J. Talked to his case manager to find out what's going on with J. Unfortunately this also gave her the opportunity to tell me that he will have a supervised visit on Tuesday. Not what I was planning. I wouldn't have called her if I had known that was going to happen. Thankfully she is agreeable to having me attend the visit so that J will know I'm there for him. Not sure what he will think about seeing her. The best part of the phone call was getting permission to contact j's potential adoptive family. I got their phone number and got to talk to the mom. We are going to get together for a playdate next week. Their family is foster to adopt. They have a 6 year old boy who sounds like excellent older brother material for J. The wonderful thing about Covenant Kids is meeting families who are serving Christ in their journeys of foster or adoption. I can't wait to meet this family and to witness the works of Christ in little J's life. He is such an angel.

Spent 2 hours trying to get the pool problems solved. I've got the sunburn to prove it. I can't even complain because Todd will remind me that I was the one who wanted the pool. Just like I was the one who wanted the dog. I'd gladly trade in the dog, but the pool we do enjoy. Wonderful watching Madeline working with J on his swimming. Loved seeing Camille rush inside when she knew J was upset that he was having trouble getting his swimsuit on. They are being so patient and loving. I love seeing these attributes so often. Two more days left of the weekend!