What's a girl suppose to do when she has no baby to rock, sing to, feed, change diaper. I took him to adoptive parents this morning. They were so thrilled to have him home at last. Their home is sparkling clean, not a piece of clutter in sight. Baby was fussing a lil and it was hard for me not to snatch him right up and make it all better. Adoptive mom, grandma, and I all had tears as I took him and snuggled him close for a goodbye. I told his 3 brothers that they were happy tears because I am so happy the baby has such a wonderful home. Best thing is that I believe it. I told them I wanted picture updates of all of them. The 8 year old said I would even get a Christmas card. As I drove home my phone beeped with my 1st pic of the baby & 2 of his big brothers. Made my heart sing. Its amazing how my heart keeps expanding with love for these angels that enter my life.
A bit tough at home. My bedroom seems so big without the pack-n-play. The family room, too, without the bassinet, car seat and bouncy. We were sure blessed with wonderful friends to let us borrow or give us the baby things. I sent the baby home with an entire summer wardrobe,boxes of diapers, and anything else in my house that was baby. The newborn clothes that he'd outgrown I did keep. You never know, I might need them again. Madeline was mad that I sent the Dreft. She wants me to wash her clothes in it so she can smell like baby.
I asked Todd if it would weird him out if I slept with one of the baby blankets. He just grinned. I think he's waiting for my meltdown. Not going to happen. I loved having baby here but I am sure of the plan God had for us in baby's life. The chocolate eclair on the way home also helped a touch. I'll b curious to see how my sleep goes tonight. It's been 4 weeks. I am exhausted. But it's a good thing. I love being a mom.
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