New Glasses

It is with mixed emotion that I say that I was right about N's vision.  Every time he runs into something I wondered if it was vision problems or just lack of coordination.  After 2 1/2 hours at a pretty lousy doctor's office, he now has new glasses.  Looks really cute in them.  Madeline says he looks smart.  He is a smart kid.  Not smart enough to know that throwing a fit will keep him from getting drops in his eyes for dilation, and thats another horrible sidenote that I don't want to have to go into.  Hope this keeps him from running into walls, but I hate it that he has to put up with the hassle of wearing glasses.  Too bad I was right. 
Little redeeming qualities for Madeline perk up every now and then.  I needed just a 15 minute shut eye in order to finish the evening.  She agreed to watch BG for me.  And, drum roll please, she changed a poopie diaper during that time.  Amazing.  Thanks, Madeline.  There is hope in your future.
Spent the evening at mini society for the elementary school.  Favorite thing about it is seeing all the neighborhood families come out and support the kids and the items they are selling.  Lucas had 38 bracelets he sold.  Notice I didn't say,"made", not exactly sure of how many he made but fairly certain that my percentage was higher than his. 
Case manager came by today and hung out with us.  She is a sweet, young woman.  Shared my concerns with her about N.  The big question was if she knew of how long the kiddos would be with us.  She's getting mixed feedback from her superiors.  I'm sure I gave mixed feedback, too.  I think I even confuse myself with the feedback I'm giving her.  I am worried about N.  Worried how his mom will handle him.  Worried that she doesn't have the sources to back her up if he gives her difficulties.  He is definitely making progress here.  I can honestly say that.  I think he benefits by being with us and that we can help him further by keeping him longer.  Wacko.  The kid that's driving me crazy, that I would say that.  It gets even wackier when I think of BG.  We are head over heels, 110%, in-love, smitten, and devoted to her.  I can say that for everyone in the house, everyone that she meets.  I know Helen will back me on this one.  She brings us so much joy every single second.  But. . . and there's my wackiness, I fear that the longer she is here the harder it will be for her to leave us.  We are all she knows.  The Stanfields with the Gilmartins are filling her life with constant love and learning.  I am very worried that she will be devastated when she doesn't have NiNi, Buddy, Nadaline, (can't say Lucas), Mil, di dog, and her beloved Helen in her life.  She is sung to, danced to, cuddled, cradled, held, swung, lifted high, strolled, and 1000 other things and that's just in one days time.  My heart aches thinking about how she will miss us.  And, yes, I will always miss her, but I still am confident that it is my job to be Jesus's hands and feet to care for this sweet BG while she needs us.  I know we are doing exactly what we are suppose to be doing in caring for her during this time of her life.  I am so thankful to be enjoying it so much but I think that it might be best for her to go home sooner rather than later.  Fortunately, I hold on to the power of Jesus and rely on his plan being far greater than mine.  Please join me in prayers for the judge and the other people involved in making the decisions about BG & N.  In the meantime,  I will love on BG & N as much as I can.  They are blessings to me.