The Transition

I realize once again that the world of foster care can certainly be compared to a roller coaster ride. Waiting to hear what is going to happen to KK & Z and the more I wait the more I think that the home study for the relative isn't going to allow them to go there. I sometimes think this is good because I'd love to keep them, other times when chaos reigns, I think I could use a break. I wonder what is best for the kids and selfishly think they are adjusting really fantastically here and could continue doing so. My faith is such that I know all these thoughts are for naught as God has a greater plan for all of it. Its just remembering to place it all in His hands that I need to continue to do. Got a call from case manger saying the kids would be moved on Saturday or Sunday, just waiting for supervisors signature. I mentally start washing their sweet clothes, worrying about what KK will do on Monday since she won't have a classroom for a Valentine's party yet. I did call to see if the home study was really good. Later got another call that says they are going to try transitioning the kids into the relatives home. They are suppose to go there for the weekend and come home to me on Sunday night. I think, whoa, this is not what I had planned. I didn't get a divorce and now have to share time with someone, especially a stranger. Not exactly the rationale thought-processing that I should be having, but also not what I thought would happen. So, my mind switches gears and I being thinking of sharing them. I am scared for them. I can't imagine being tucked into a different bed on Saturday night. I will miss his sweet arms reaching for me and of KK saying "love ya, Nina." I just pray that God lifts them up and continues to watch over them as they struggle down life's road. I pray for the family they are going to live with as they have 4 older children. I smile as I think of what kind of crazy person would have 6 kids. I pray that their struggles end soon and that they find steady love in a home that will be there for them always. A forever home.